“Please pull over to the side of the road. I want to hold you and kiss you.”
The children in the back seat, two blond youngsters caught by my peripheral vision, wouldn't understand what was building up within me. Graham did as instructed.
Cupping his face in my hands, we kissed with the most passion I have ever felt, a soft, lingering kiss. “Graham, you have no idea how much I love you,” I whispered. Tears warmed my cheeks as we continued on our way.
The dream was so powerful I awoke immediately. What a way to start a day. I cried on my way to work unable to shake the lingering feeling of the moment. It was only a dream and yet it would affect my whole day forcing thoughts of other intense moments that took my emotions into custody almost instantly:
Watching twins sleeping, inhaling the crisp air on Machu Picchu in Peru, feeling the spray from the Sea of Galilee, seeing the quilted Andes in Bolivia, observing grandchildren escape the womb, watching Native American dancing or smelling the presence of the Lord, have all left me an emotional cripple.
I have always tried to drink in every extraordinary moment of life, savoring it as a supreme moment of my existence and in so doing, have captured flashes that I can recall at any given time with almost the same amount of felling as when it took place. Passion will do that for you.
Marie Barnett wrote the song, “Breathe.” It speaks of the air we breathe realizing that the holy presence of God is living within and also about ingesting our daily bread which is of course the Word of God.
Another part says, “I’m desperate for you and I’m lost without you.” That was the feeling I had started the day with, that longing and need to express those deep feelings of love.
“Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave. It burns like blazing fir, like a mighty flame. Many waters cannot quench love; rivers cannot wash it away. If one were to give all the wealth of his house for love, it would be utterly scorned” (Song of Songs 8:6-7, NIV).
If we are able to feel so passionately, think about how much more God loves us. Anyone who waits around on us day after day, year in, year out, for just a moment of recognition, a few minutes of concentrated sensitivity, has to have it bad; love.
If we fully comprehended that our happiness is found in God’s love it would change us from the inside out. I love The Message’s interpretation of Psalms 4:3-8.
“Look at this: look who got picked by God! He listens the split second I call to him. Complain if you must, but don't lash out. Keep your mouth shut, and let your heart do the talking. Build your case before God and wait for his verdict.Why is everyone hungry for more? "More, more," they say. "More, more." I have God's more-than-enough, more joy in one ordinary day than they get in all their shopping sprees. At day's end I'm ready for sound sleep, for you, God, have put my life back together.”
Isn’t that what we desire? Someone put us together please! You may not admit it but it is a common thing to be scattered, having a feeling of disjointedness. That’s why we have to give the Lord time to come to us and touch us with his love. It only happens if we relax in his presence and breathe in time with His Holy Spirit.
By the time Paul wrote the Ephesians, he knew a lot about listening carefully to what God was whispering in his ear every moment of the day through his good times and the bad.
“And so here I am, preaching and writing about things that are way over my head, the inexhaustible riches and generosity of Christ.
My task is to bring out in the open and make plain what God, who created all this in the first place, has been doing in secret and behind the scenes all along.
Through Christians like yourselves gathered in churches, this extraordinary plan of God is becoming known and talked about even among the angels!
All this is proceeding along lines planned all along by God and then executed in Christ Jesus.
When we trust in him, we're free to say whatever needs to be said, bold to go wherever we need to go.” Eph 3:8-12
To think that Paul’s words can be our word astounds and thrills me. Knowing and experiencing the truth that God is intimate with us on a daily basis motivates the magnetic pull to seek his awesome presence more and more each day.
Have you missed the ruby sunrises and golden sunsets or the array of wildflowers covering the land for you? Can he not touch you with all of creation that he throws at your feet because of his great love? Are answered prayers and guidance in life’s decisions, his abiding nurturing to be cast away as something trivial?
Can anyone or I, ever say the most intense moment of their life was not when Jesus Christ came into their heart and scales fell from their eyes enabling them to feel the passion of God? I think not! Breathe in God’s love today. He will embrace you and say, “You have no idea how much I love you.” You will weep, but with tears of joy.